thought i should check out my dec 04 entries, see if i made any resolution for 05. and i realised there were only 3 entries. haha so of course, there were no 05 resolutions.

well, resolutions.. arent they always the same? i will always resolve to study harder, control my temper, be less selfish and treat people nicer. and every year, in some aspects i will fail..so every year the same resolutions are made. so what for make resolutions? haha

uneventful day today, except i went ahma's house, and she kept asking how come i went, out of the blue? sat for 4 hours today (?) getting my hair cut, washed, dyed, treated and now i feel lighter, but my head is rounder. haha

busy day tomorrow! kboxing with gen and her friend, pat in the afternoon, going for crab dinner after that at simpang bedok, then it will be 2b bbq at hanjing house! i need 1st to recuperate,2nd to be a good girl at home..

so i can only see you when school reopens.. meanwhile, happy new year people!!!

if ever you think i'm in a relationship not for love, but for fear of being single, please tell me.. i hope it never happens though..

i realised i am not really steadfast in love.. i have a damn pessimistic and skeptical viewpoint most of the time, and a slightly more cheerful one other times.. happy times(aka no quarrels), i think maybe the rs can last, once quarrel, i think breaking up is easier.. why lidat?! can somebody make me stop being lidat?!

haha i believe love doesnt last, but i also hope that maybe it will.. as ql said i guess, we're all hoping for that love of our life, but afraid it wouldnt come.. haha

falling in love is supposed to be a good feeling, right? but maybe i must be cautious in love.. cause somehow i feel that my scope of the world becomes narrower, i become less rational when i'm in love..and spending less time with my parents and friends also bugs me.. for fear of making me upset, they dont say anything, and i pretend everything's ok..

my ideal relationship, hmm...in a few years time perhaps i'll tell you.. but i do know reality deviates from dreams..

holiday season, was supposed to meet alot of friends, but i fell ill.. so sorry that we'll have to wait some time to see each other again.. take care ya? enjoy the last few days!!

this shouldnt be the only time we think about giving, but it's the season when we are resolved to show our loved ones we love them, and we are less selfish and more in the holiday spirit to do so.. not exactly right i guess, but as human beings, we try our best=)

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!!

my brother zui teng me le!! haha he bought me a red fila jacket! and he bought my pa a wallet, my ma, a necklace, and himself an adidas jacket.. and we shared osim uzap as a present for my ma! i know i shouldnt view material gifts as mark of affection, but i love my brother all the more for his generosity!!! *muackz*!

the season of love makes me think alot about my my views on love-am i too weird? or too scared love wont last?

5th fever! hoorah! plus diarrhea, what more can i ask for? sick of being sick. going to see doc again, cant the doc come to see me? why is my doc in tamp!!! roar

i'm so full of shit this morning.. unbelievable tummy ache.
kinda lethargic and mopey today, not really in the mood to go out, since tmr have to register subjects, and i didnt sleep well..but i shall honour my promise.. thankfully mahjong set can dont bring..
xmas is 3 days away!! yay!! tmr night going to meet the see-them-once-half-a-year people to kbox at cine.. ahaha..but how can i stay out when i am workin on 24th?
din get to eat dinner wth my family last night, due to a silly miscommunication..but there's always another time!!! =)



why cant do i do the right thing to please myself as well as everyone?? why do i have to go home early, have cinderella curfew hours?

nobody knows for sure when results are gonna be out, so i can only listen to hearsay and check diligently. hmm

always imagined the worst will happen, but thank my lucky stars it didnt..perhaps we fret too much, perhaps its cause a certain someone didnt show up. happy birthday my three darlings! 19!! =) get yourself something nice like what you promised!

work is neverending, sad that i gotta work next week.. and i have no idea when i might get to wake up at 11am again.. :( just wanna slack at home, and rot to my heart's content.. just wanna go out and enjoy myself, without having to entertain or socialise..

Ah! dropped my razr v3! haha

the words that are on my noticeboard, i must always remember them, in case i ever need to use them on myself.

driving later today, and i think i will suck at it. haha but oh well, a happy thought keeps me smiling =)

out every evening this week, except for tomorrow, looking especially forward to that with jarrod and gen on sun. haha =) finally i can my work begin to end.. haha yay!xmas coming!

scratch my handphone and i will gek sim die. black isnt my colour, but the phone's slim! wahaha, just that i take 5 minutes to compose an sms? haha

my friends are back again, the usual 4 that have the ability to make me cough sneeze burn and curse. sick for the third time in a month. doc says if i dont recover fully, i will have to take a blood test for dengue. scary thought, but i think i will get well. haha

staying at home i also gotta work.. haha my mum is so lucky to have me. =p but she got us both a V3! havent seen it though.. haha yay! i can change hp!

just realised that i've gotta go back to ntu one day to clear my hostel fees thing. oh the journey. :s

3 days into the job, and i'm tired. totally exhausted. want my beauty sleep. neck is extremely sore. eyebags huge. but i'm still not grouchy yet. haha maybe at the end of 14 days i will be, but right now, i'm still friendly.. and my best friend's my bed. haha =p

ok whatever plans i've made for next weekm sorry to say, haiz, have to be cancelled, or at least postponed. for two weeks. i've just been urgently recruited to work. i could have said no, but my mummy looks so tired and washed out that i cant bear to decline. and my father asked too.. so i shall be good girl, and earn some money instead of spending it.. two weeks, if i never blog, you know what i'm doing.

if a blog was meant for me to type every single thing that comes to my mind, i think each post would be a 4000 word essay, minimum. haha but of course, who doesnt type selectively?

i hate whiny children, and their mothers who let them roll on the floor making a din. they should be barred from public places. roar!

i wanna get a pair of nice slippers!

happy just to stay home.. tired legs, zero shopping mood yet. next week i'm gonna kbox! yay~!! not exactly looking forward to school, i could have a holiday forever.. haha

let me grow up happily, dont let me know the feeling of loss at so young an age.. like watching "little women", such a touching show..

legs are tired from walking too much, without buying a single thing. has the shopping prowess indicative of women deserted me?